I have succumbed to total self directed learning. It seems to be our only way. I have let my boy fly and he is soaring. I; however, am suffering from guilt. I am constantly stuck in the past and feeling the despair of the wasted time spent in school. The regression. The misdiagnosed symptoms. Did we have to go through all of this to come to where we are? Perhaps. We are stronger and more knowledgeable. I am still punishing myself for not being more insightful earlier on. What could have been and what is. We are on the right path now despite those that do not understand. Ours doesn't look normal. That is okay. That is more than okay. I now embrace our eccentricities. I am not changing who we are so the world will accept us and understand. We are outliers. It started with rejecting the institution. The system. We do not subscribe to the educational status quo. We can't. We tried. It didn't work. We will create our own destiny. It won't look like everyone else's. He is not well rounded. He is not following that which we are supposed to. He is authentic. He will find his place and he will thrive. He may even change the world.
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Maverick Learning
I have succumbed to total self directed learning. It seems to be our only way. I have let my boy fly and he is soaring. I; however, am suffering from guilt. I am constantly stuck in the past and feeling the despair of the wasted time spent in school. The regression. The misdiagnosed symptoms. Did we have to go through all of this to come to where we are? Perhaps. We are stronger and more knowledgeable. I am still punishing myself for not being more insightful earlier on. What could have been and what is. We are on the right path now despite those that do not understand. Ours doesn't look normal. That is okay. That is more than okay. I now embrace our eccentricities. I am not changing who we are so the world will accept us and understand. We are outliers. It started with rejecting the institution. The system. We do not subscribe to the educational status quo. We can't. We tried. It didn't work. We will create our own destiny. It won't look like everyone else's. He is not well rounded. He is not following that which we are supposed to. He is authentic. He will find his place and he will thrive. He may even change the world.

Thank you for this! You took the words right out of my heart. We have also taken a long road to self-directed learning with our 15 year old daughter. But now that we are here, life is happy again. She is happy again for the first time in years! And I have the guilt of why I didn't see this sooner.
ReplyDeleteThe happiness makes up for the guilt. And as for everyone else and what they think, it just doesn't matter. We are going to do what is right for her because she is worth it!
It is both an exciting and scary path!
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